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that I'm not even sure I remember how. Hi everyone! I'm Ceresi! I used to make stuff, like fic and art. The thought of posting has been causing much anxiety for the past year or so, so I avoided it, thereby cleverly increasing my anxiety. Total win.

There are many comments and replies and stuff that I owe people, and I certainly haven't forgotten them. I've still checked my flist two or three times a day for the past Year of Silence so rest assured that I still ♥ you all and will keep blabbing at you as long as you'll have me. But I thought maybe I could ease myself back into posting by disabling comments and yakking fannishly a few times, and then I will resume socializing and/or groveling as necessary.

So here is my fannish yakking: KOTOR 2! I finally got around to playing it b/c of the new MMO that's coming out soon and wow, I forgot how flat the KOTOR engine was, and how boring combat could be. But the story of KOTOR 2 is pretty good, if a lot less organized than KOTOR 1. Like, I was halfway through the game and it wasn't until I read some of the character articles at Wookiepedia that I understood some of the major backstory (like, Malachor V level major).

But there is a part of the story that has been prompting thinky thoughts on my part, so here they are: KOTOR 2, exile, and disability. some spoilers ahead )

So, this is wildly incoherent! Awesome!

And here's the downside of disallowing comments, because I don't really want to talk about this with myself, I want to take about it with other people. So I'll leave the comments unlocked, but with the caveat that I might not reply, or at least not in any cohesive way. If I don't reply please don't take it personally, I am a dork. Someday I will function like an actual human being but that day will be some time from now, I'm afraid.

♥♥♥
omg!
Okay, I know I'm a total lamer for not posting at all in the however many months, I suck, school work school school busy busy blah.

BUT SOMEONE on my friendslist posted a poem sometime ago. I don't remember all of it but I'm pretty sure one of the lines was "for whom the world was made". I think it was printed in the NY Times and they might have posted it for Poetry Month? And maybe it was written about the habeas corpus issue or maybe that's just me misremembering.

I have no excuse for my absence, I suck, but assuming whoever posted that poem is still on my flist please please forgive me long enough to link to that post? GOOGLE IS FAILING ME. I didn't think that could happen!
hugtiemnao?
I have so many things I think about writing everyday and somehow I never get around to it. November is way too busy for me to do NaBloPoMo but maybe I'll try in December.

This is something I saw the other day. It's a documentary! About a cat circus! No, really, a cat circus.



And this meme I gacked from [profile] postingwhore:

• Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper on their LiveJournal.
• Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
• Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!

sorry, didn't realize it was huge )

It's Beka Cooper from the cover of Tamora Pierce's Bloodhound! I went to the library last weekend and ended up grabbing Terrier and Bloodhound and am totally in love with them. The covers were also really well done, too, which surprised me b/c usually teen fantasy fiction covers are awful (or they were, back in the days when I used to read regularly). Anyway, I love it. Beka is awesome. (That's five sentences, isn't it?)

YOU GUYS

Oct. 16th, 2009 05:47 pm
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DEAR RAYEMARS (YES YOU!),

I SUSPECT CONSPIRACY. THERE HAS BEEN CONSPIRING. rayemars rayemars rayemars. I am literally speechless. I'm going to make spaghetti and it's going to be awesome. And then I'm going to make the brownies Edmondia sent me and they're going to be awesome. And it's Friday, too! AND YOU GUYS.

(Okay seriously, if I can be serious for a moment without making things too emo, there have been times the past few months where I felt like I was falling off the edge of the world and I couldn't remember why that was bad. And now I have noms and a card and a letter, and the noms are great but the fact that you guys went to all the trouble to send these things to me is something potentially epic. And now I'm getting wibbly again! Must stop being serious now.)

I am just all. \o/ RAYEMARS RAYEMARS THANK YOU and EDMONDIA THANK YOU AGAIN you lovely wonderful CONSPIRATORS and I am pressing my hands to my face and grinning like the big crazy person you know I totally am. YOU GUYS YOU GUYS. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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EDMONDIAAAAAA

I got your package!

I was totally not expecting it today, or for it to contain so much delicious noms! I got kind of wibbly, no lie. Also, the cat is very suspicious of the box, but is being won over by the food via slivers of fruit snack. I give it an hour before she's sitting in the box and looking smug.

&YOU;. ♥♥♥ x forever
everyone's crazy but me
You know, I love DailyKos kind of the way I love fandom. A lot less than I love fandom, admittedly, but in a similar way. I visit the website several times a day because it's a good way to hear from a lot of different people who I have a little bit in common with. I read almost all of the comments of the diaries I read, which is part of the reason why I don't post there more often.

The other part of the reason is that sometimes Dkos is fricking crazy. Here are the headlines on the reclist atm:

Grayson EXPLODES on GOP: "America doesn't CARE about your feelings" Man On Fire!
Congratulations President Obama on the Nobel Peace Prize -- Now Please Earn it!
30+ Reasons Obama deserves the Nobel Peace Prize
WTF? You have to be kidding me... this is a joke (a mostly incoherent rant about the evils of Bush and why Obama really deserves the Nobel after all . . . I think)
A Moment To Be Bold
If Rush buys Rams, some Black players won't play
Do sex offenders deserve to live? (on the reclist!)
CO2 now highest in 15 million years: catastrophe looms


And here are a few from the recent diaries list:

Should we bomb Iran? FOX poll.
Obama Should Donate His Nobel Prize Money to the Nat'l Assoc. of Free Clinics
Iran’s Supreme Council Declares Ahmadinejad Nobel Winner
9 months is enough time for Obama to bankrupt the country, but too soon for a Nobel Peace Prize
Limbaugh wants to buy biggest Democratic backers in the NFL
Where Obama Could Donate His Prize Money
An Ironic and Poorly Conceived Front Page Diary
The Anti-Bush Nobel Peace Prize
I admire Barack, but the Peace Prize?
Quit your cowering! Grow a god damn spine. And CELEBRATE this great honor!
FL Repubs: It's Our Right to Shoot at Arab Silhouettes
We should have won the Nobel Peace Prize.
Obama: The Prize, The Work, The Reality
Anti-Gay Animus in Full View in Washington State


As you can tell, the most alarmed and hysterical headlines quickly make it to the reclist. My favorite is catastrophe looms. Can't you just hear the ominous music in the background? Unfortunately, the recced diaries mocking comments from FreeRepublic has already slipped off -- I always love it when we indulge in a little hypocrisy and judge Republicans in the exact same way we scream about them doing to us (namely, cherry-picking comments, removing them from context, mocking them, and judging the whole group by the bad behavior of a few).

I don't want to pay into the meme that Democrats as a whole are as hateful as Republicans, because after all, they have Rush and Glenn and are proud of them. Even the worst conspiracy theorists and hateful rhetoricians of the left would have to hustle to keep up with those guys.

But seriously, sometimes, this site. *hands*
hoping for a miracle
Good morning. Well, this is not how I expected to wake up this morning. After I received the news, Malia walked in and said, "Daddy, you won the Nobel Peace Prize, and it is Bo's birthday!" And then Sasha added, "Plus, we have a three-day weekend coming up." So it's good to have kids to keep things in perspective.

[...]

And that's why this award must be shared with everyone who strives for justice and dignity -- for the young woman who marches silently in the streets on behalf of her right to be heard even in the face of beatings and bullets; for the leader imprisoned in her own home because she refuses to abandon her commitment to democracy; for the soldier who sacrificed through tour after tour of duty on behalf of someone half a world away; and for all those men and women across the world who sacrifice their safety and their freedom and sometime their lives for the cause of peace.
badass
spoilers for The Clone Wars! s02e01 & e02 )

I should do a Rex and Ahsoka picspam for those of you who not watching the show, y/y?

okay, so

Oct. 1st, 2009 01:02 pm
ummm
This was recently posted to a comm I'm watching. Quoted:

No, it's not Star Wars: it's not even sci-fi. It does however, feature four recognizable Rogue Squadron characters.

I happen to write western novels as well as fanfic. I've already written three books featuring characters from Blakes 7, a tv sci-fi series I'm a fan of. As I love writing about Wedge and the Rogues, I decided they could go into a western too. So Wedge, Tycho, Wes and Hobbie are now a Colorado sheriff and his three loyal deputies.

The characters have the surnames of the actor who played them in the movies (except Tycho, as I couldn't find a name for him). The town they're based in is called Lucasville, there's a beautiful widow called Eileen Wessex and the bad guy is called KJ Anderson .

Sadly, the generic gunfighter on the cover doesn't resemble any of the heroes, though his colouring is correct for Sheriff Alec Lawson. The setting doesn't look a fat lot like the Rockies either. Never mind..


She's selling the book on Amazon. Isn't that . . . plagarism? Or at least copyright infringement? I'm genuinely clueless.
this is how we end up
For anyone who's been following some of the recent stuff re: the President's birth certificate ('birthers') the town hall protests and Sarah Palin's stupid comments ('deathers') and the 'tea bag' rallies ('teabaggers'), or just anyone who's interested in the role racism is playing in some of the recent insanity, you should really read this post. A quote:

But these are not three disparate movements with three different practitioners, three different conspiracy theories that simply happen to share the same summertime stage. In practice and organization they are one movement, a single collection of the same set of animated citizens and televised leaders, and their signs decrying fascism, Naziism, communism, taxes, euthanasia and outrage over 1960's-era Hawaiian government paperwork mingle freely at every protest . . . They are nearly exclusively white, predominantly middle aged and elderly, and unambiguously conservative. Many of those shouting against their government are already participants in the same "socialized medicine" they decry, but to a person will not consider their Medicare to be of that evil ilk . . . It is, in short, a movement made up of the enfranchised and enabled; people who have gained every benefit from the politics of America and yet who feel in their very bones that they are the oppressed ones, the ones who have nothing left to lose, so rapidly is America falling away from them. It is rare to run across any movement so deeply angry -- or more to the point, a movement which explicitly celebrates anger as the primary mission of their activism.

[...]

It seems at first a bizarre thought, a mere freeform hiccup of the brain, but between a half-dozen different commentators I am apparently already far from the first to have it: it seems to me like the last time we saw public discourse be as intentionally devolved as it is today was during, of all things, American desegregation.
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There are so many things wrong with me, you guys, I can barely list them all. The most disturbing highlights:

- I've spent most of the past month listening to country music. Popular country music from the nineties. You can check here for more information about it (or to listen to it yourself!) but it's just. So embarassing. Right now it's that Maria song from Brooks & Dunn which is just, like, an inch away from yodeling. And if you haven't heard it you think I'm joking but I'm not.

- I've reached the saturation point of my current fannish obsession (Star Wars) and so now I'm at the stage where I'm reading books I don't like and watching game videos on YouTube for something new. Case in point: I made the mistake of re-reading some of Karen Traviss' RC books (yes, the ones I complained about before) which isn't really a mistake, she's a wonderful author and I'm truly in awe of her, but they make me feel like crap! And I knew they were going to do that and I read them anyway! I've toyed with the thought of dling Merlin or SGA, both of which I've seen my flist squeeing over, but I don't want Merlin or SGA! I want Star Wars! Hence, saturation point. I tried diverting myself with Torchwood but it was not enourmously successful. I dunno, do you guys recommend SGA? Is it pretty light in tone? I mean, I can handle some dark stuff but deep down I'm a fragile snowflake, I need my happy endings. Maybe I can work up some enthusiasm for something other than Captain Hotass Rex and Tiny Badass Ahsoka.

- Jobs. Jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs. I am so lazy. Jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobs jobssssssssss. I got a work offer half an hour ago and seem trapped in some bipolar circle of glee and despair. Money! On the other hand, talking to people! The recent dose of KT isn't helping. I need so much professional help, you guys, it's not even funny.

THIS IS MY LIFE. What is happening to you?
woe
I SO CALLED THAT TWIST.

ARGH TOMORROW IS IT HERE YET?
pure glee
WE WANT A PONY

askdjasldkjad I spent most of this episode trying not to scream! oh my fucking god i'm going to be dead by the end of the week.

cut for spoilers and actual thoughts )
omg!
THIS IS THE SHOW WE WERE PROMISED

ALSO HOLY SHIT I'M KIND OF IN LOVE FOREVER
otp
Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

My words from [personal profile] rayemars!

writing, design, enthusiasm, politics, Ohio )

COMMENT AND I WILL GIVE YOU WORDS. ♥!
heartbreak
I know this trip doesn't get any easier as the years pass, but for those of you who make it, there's nothing that could keep you away. One such veteran, a man named Jim Norene, was a member of the 502nd Parachute Infantry Division of the 101st Airborne. Last night, after visiting this cemetery for one last time, he passed away in his sleep. Jim was gravely ill when he left his home, and he knew that he might not return. But just as he did 65 years ago, he came anyway. May he now rest in peace with the boys he once bled with, and may his family always find solace in the heroism he showed here.

In the end, Jim Norene came back to Normandy for the same reason we all come back. He came for the reason articulated by Howard Huebner, another former paratrooper who is here with us today. When asked why he made the trip, Howard said, "It's important that we tell our stories. It doesn't have to be something big -- just a little story about what happened -- so people don't forget."

So people don't forget.


Full text here.
i don't feel so well
For some reason, I've spent most of the past weekend reading books by Karen Traviss. They're Star Wars books and technically only one person dies but jesus fucking christ, they are the equivalent of injecting angst directly into your bloodstream. Why the fuck did I think it was a good idea to read these things?

I'm going to go marathon a bunch of episodes of The Clone Wars, since '3D-animated children's show' is about the highest level of complexity my emotionally defective self can handle. I swear, I wish I could just read books like a normal person, I used to do it all the time, but everytime I do these days I end up feeling gutted.

me me me

May. 20th, 2009 09:51 pm
omg!
THE ANONYMOUS WRITING FEEDBACK MEME


LOL, what writing? I haven't written anything in ages! SPANK ME HARD, GUYS, I LIKE IT. :D

Also, wow, that embed is some seriously bad HTML. Why would you set the pre tag and then specify the typeface and color? And then nest your font tag and link anchor? :/
just this once
An excerpt from the speech President Obama made at Notre Dame:

After all, I stand here today, as president and as an African-American, on the 55th anniversary of the day that the Supreme Court handed down the decision in Brown v. the Board of Education. Brown was of course the first major step in dismantling the separate but equal doctrine, but it would take a number of years and a nationwide movement to fully realize the dream of civil rights for all of God's children. There were freedom rides and lunch counters and Billy clubs, and there was also a Civil Rights Commission appointed by President Eisenhower. It was the 12 resolutions recommended by this commission that would ultimately become law in the Civil Rights Act of 1964.

There were six members of the commission. It included five whites and one African-American; Democrats and Republicans; two Southern governors, the dean of a Southern law school, a Midwestern university president, and your own Father Ted Hesburgh, president of Notre Dame. They worked for two years, and at times, President Eisenhower had to intervene personally since no hotel or restaurant in the South would serve the black and white members of the commission together. Finally, when they reached an impasse in Louisiana, Father Ted flew them all to Notre Dame's retreat in Land O' Lakes, Wis., where they eventually overcame their differences and hammered out a final deal.

Years later, President Eisenhower asked Father Ted how on Earth he was able to broker an agreement between men of such different backgrounds and beliefs. And Father Ted simply said that during their first dinner in Wisconsin, they discovered that they were all fishermen. And so he quickly readied a boat for a twilight trip out on the lake. They fished, and they talked, and they changed the course of history.

I will not pretend that the challenges we face will be easy, or that the answers will come quickly, or that all our differences and divisions will fade happily away. Life is not that simple. It never has been.

But as you leave here today, remember the lessons of Cardinal Bernardin, of Father Hesburgh, of movements for change both large and small. Remember that each of us, endowed with the dignity possessed by all children of God, has the grace to recognize ourselves in one another; to understand that we all seek the same love of family and the same fulfillment of a life well-lived. Remember that in the end, we are all fishermen.
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